Aunt "D", Aunt "G",Age Concern and Illnesses

Theres been quite a bit happening since my last entry. My son "A" came home from prison 17th December and has been doing things right which i am really pleased about and hope he continues to do so for his own sake.

I spent christmas with my daughter "SH" and my grandaughter "Z" which was very nice and we had some fun playing board games and on the wii machine. I gave "SH" money for christmas and "Z" i gave her money and a bag of goodies whichshe was really happy with.

My aunt "D" passed away 29th December from kidney failier and i miss her terribly. But, i do have some fond happy memories of her which i shall treasure.

New year i was on my own which was nice as i do like my own company doing what i want to do. I wastched TV,read some of my new book The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown which "?" had bought me for christmas as well as a new coat for me. I gave him money so he could buy what he wanted.

"?" "SH" and myself attended aunt "D" funeral 15th January at Corbets Tey crem Upminster. Several of my family attended, most of them i did'nt recognise at all as i had'nt seen them for about 30-40 years. I spoke to a couple of my cousins and we will be keeping in contact.

I have been in contact with my aunt "G" who i have mentioned before. I intende to visit her after christmas ,but the weather was too bad to go anywhere, then i got a bad chest infection and could'nt go round to see her. I rang aunt "G" to explain and it turns out she was ill too and we still are.

I have been really bad with this infection 2 lots of antibiotics and 1 lot of steroids which i have just finished. I'm still having breathing problems and trouble with my Asthma, if i'm not any better by Monday i will be going back to my GP. The problem seems to be in my right lung which my GP had told me when i see him,it still feels like it too. I hav'nt been able to do any light chores at all due to fatigue or bathe properly as i could'nt hold my arms up long enough before i was worn out, i do hate being like this. Yesteday, i did do a couple of light chores and rested in between, but i was unable to shower as i was too fatigued. Today however, i was able to shower, but i did'nt do any light chores though, i just rested most of the day as i was feeling a bit rough in myself. I will be glad when the warmer weather comes so i can get out a bit more and sit in the sun.

Aunt "G" has been bad with this chest infection too and she too has been having problems with her Asthma too. I have been ringing her to see if shes ok as she lives on her own.She has had a bad time the last couple of months with her sister who had passed away before christmas and her friend also passed away just after christmas. Aunt "G" asked me to get help from Age Concern, so i phoned my daughter "SH" as works for Age Concern and she has been getting some home visits for her and seeing to her needs.

"SH" is prepareing for exams, all to do with Age Concern and is at this moment doing her home work which has to be in by 15th February. Shes not sure if she will get through it or not as they're asking so much from her. I told her all she can do is her best. She really wants to do this work too. I do hope she manages to do it. "Z" will be staying with me over night 14th February si "SH" can revise some quitely the night before, then go for the exam on 15th.

"?" has been having problems with bipolar. In one way its a good thing as he is keeping his mind occupied by making cupboards in my bedroom, but he don't seem to slow down which is really getting to me, he seems to be doing things so fast although i am pleased with what he has done. Hes made 2 wall cupboards in the alcoves and 2 large bedside cabinets both sides of my bed which i am really pleased with. What i don't like is he is so anxious to do things and comes over fatigued ill in himself a lot which is'nt good for him...It worries me and all i can do is keep an eye on him as he takes no notice of what i say to him. I feel that one day he will actually collapse. He has been anxious to do things since he had the stents put in his heart roughly 5-6 years ago now. He actually cleaned his car out the same day he came home from the Royal London Hospital where they performed the operation and he was told he had to rest.

Well thats all my news for now, so to all my online friends Best Wishes and Take Care...Astra!

More Problems

Again its been a while since my last entry and theres been a few ups and downs during this time.

It seems "E" has disappeared with little Alfie."?" and i have brought social services in because she has been lying quite a lot and to "A" and hes thinking the world is against him in all directions. And it seems that "E" has contributed to "A's" imprisonment by lying through her teeth,so shes had it away on her toes with little Alfie in tow.This came about only last week when i phoned "E" for the social services no and the name of the person who is dealing with her case to find out why "A" can't live with "E" and little Alfie, that was Wednesday last week.
But,Thursday evening she told "A" on the phone that social services had moved her to a safe house as he is due out of prison next week 15th,when we phoned social services it is all lies there is no warrent for anything except that "A" can't live with Alfie. "E" had also told me before that there is a warrent on "?" and myself too that we could'nt see Alfie and that was all lies too,so social services are going to find her and Alfie, but i don't know whats going to happen next.

I went round to aunt "D" on Tuesday to drop her christmas present off, i spent a few hours there and got her TV sorted out so she could watch her DVDs. Shes not too well in herself at all, so i will visit her more often.I will have to leave it here and i will post another entry soon as i hav'nt got time to write any more at the moment...Best wishes to all my online friends and who ever reads this.God Bless to all...Astra!

moved on, projects ect...

I can't believe it, I ordered my new mattress and thought to myself i'm not in any dept as such. Then i thought i would put some washing on and get them out to dry, the washing machine washed ok but, it did'nt spin dry and i could'nt open the door to take the washing out so, "?" took the top off and released the door from the inside for me.

"A" has been moved on to another prison again this week, hes in Liverpool now and he says theres some really rough poeple there and its worse than the ones hes been too previously and is counting the days for his release which is the 15th December. I received a letter from him this week and replied to it.

"?" has been having ups and downs this week. Hes finding projects to do around the house and is very anxious, i think this is the Bipola which makes him have to be doing things and this is'nt his real self if you know what i mean and he keeps coming over fatigued which is Angina. One minute hes as strong as a lion and the next as weak as a kitten and if you try to stop him from doing things he get agressive,so i just keep an eye on him. I think he might will breakdown one way or another.

All my dieting has gone up in the air again and my blood sugar has risen too, i was doing nicely at one point, but all this worry is'nt helping none...Well, no more news for now. Best wishes to all my online friends...Astra!

Orders,Age Concern and Jobs...

I just came online to check on a couple of orders i made to see where they've got to. My new mattress arrived yesterday which is really comfortable and i got a good nights sleep although i still toss and turn alot because of my aches and pains, but not so much last night i'm pleased to say probably because of this new mattress.

I only came online to check as to where a couple of orders have got to from my catalogue and they should be here soon. My daughter "SH" phoned me last night she said "Hello "S" This is "SH" from Age Concern" cheeky mare she is. She had been doing her charity work yesterday manning the phones at Age Concern ringing elderly people to check to see if they are ok or if they needed anything and just chattering to them generally. She was telling me that Age Concern might be closing through lack of funds as it is funded by the council. "SH" is still looking for a proper job.

"L" went along to the chemist and had to fill a form in and has to wait to be sent for an interview. I really hope she gets this job as it would really suit her down to the ground. She has put her name down for quite a few different kind of jobs and hav'nt heard from any of them.

Well no more news from me today, i only came online to check a couple of things out...Best Wishes and Take Care to all my online friends....Astra!

Looking For Work...

Its about 8:30am and i'm waiting for my new mattress to arrive. So, i thought i would browse the Internet for a while before i do a bit of housework.

"A" phone last night. He said all charges have been dropped against him for the incident that happened a couple of days ago and he is still looking forward to coming home the middle of December now and in time for Christmas. I sent him some money to get by, but i was worried about the postal stike as to whether he would get it or not,anyway he told me he had received it and thanked me for it. He was telling me "E" and little Alfie won't be able to visit him where he is as its too far and she has'nt got the money to start off with although she would be reimbursed when she gets there. Money is too hard to come by to lend out and in hope of getting it back myself...if you know what i mean!

"SH" went for her interview yesterday,but it was only 12 hours and the hours are too short for her to get help with her rent ect...which is a shame as she was hoping to get that one as its near to home. It seems that she has to do 16 hours per week before she qualifies for help. She still has the charity work to do, but is also still looking for a job.

Yesterday, i told "L" about a driving job that is going and she went along to put her name down and is hoping to get it. The job is delivering prescriptions to patients and collections from other chemists which would suit her down to the ground and is 16 hours which would be ideal and she could also get help with her rent ect..."ST" saw this job advertised at our chemist.

I've been trying to lose some weight, i'm on the right track anyway and i hope to stay that way and my blood sugar is coming down too so i must be doing something right, but i'm finding it hard to exercise like i used to,but i'm doing a bit of what i CAN do. Its been difficult to put my mind on myself to help myself for quite sometime if you know what i mean. Well, thats all my news for now so i will leave it here and Best Wishes to all my online friends...Astra!

Saturday Evening

Its Saturday evening and i'm watching Strictly,i've missed 5 mins of it as i was watching most haunted. "ST" is still at his mums untill tomorrow. and i'm waiting for X-Factor to come on. Last week i tried to vote a couple of times for Stacey,but the line was dead all the time,so i did'nt get to vote after all. I think stacey has a lovely voice and she makes me laugh when she talks, shes so funny. The other one i like is Jamie.

"A" has been transferred to another prison somewhere in the midlands. I'm rather concerned as someone provoked and started a fight with him and "A" put him down and "A" is expected to be put in solitary confinement for a few days for this. For what i have heard this other person is something to do with the people who had stabbed him April before last and this person had threatened to have "A" killed when he is released. Gawd knows when all this will stop.

"SH" just phoned me, shes just been offered a weekend job in one of our local shops at The Heathway Mall and is hoping to start soon. Well, thats all for now...Astra!

Changes...Oh dear!

Its been quite sometime since my last entry and i hav'nt been online for a few weeks myself either, but "ST" has been online everyday. I was cleaning this laptop and thought i would write in my journal for a while and up-date it a bit. There have been a few changes going on and more to come...Oh, i do hate changes!

"ST" has dropped out of college and is taking more GCSE's in November so he can do what he wants to do in college because he was'nt able to do what he wanted to do,so he will have to enrol again next year.

"A" is expected to be released from prison December or January. The people who stabbed him over a year ago now is in the same prison and on the same wing as "A" which makes him feel uncomfortable,so "A" has asked to be transfered to another prison for the rest of his sentence. I hav'nt heard from him since i was told this which was about a week ago now which is worrying me now...Oh dear! i do hope "A" has changed his ways.

The last 2 months i've had the council down to repair my boiler and it is still leaking and half the time i've got no hot water or heating. I am expecting the workment here this afternoon again.

Lately i've been budgeting my income more closely and if things get any worse i may have to do away with this internet, still,i will see how things go.

My daughter is doing charity work now. She goes round befriending the elderly in their houses twice a week. She said she likes doing that and is hoping it leads to a proper job later. At the moment she and "Z" are staying at ASH" for a couple of days this week while the kids are on half term. "SH" only does Thursday and Friday visiting these people.

I'm still reading books. And trying to lose some weight which is'nt going too well at the moment,so i need to work harder on that. The same with Diabetes, i need to work on that too. The trouble is i worry too much and nibble a lot, so i will have to change this some how.I feel worried all the time. I'm hoping "A" don't start his tricks again when he comes home, i don't think i can take any more of his nonsense

"?" has'nt been too well for a long time now. He is having Angina attacks quite often and feeling really ill in himself. He went to his annual heart disease check-up and the nurse was going to send him to hospital as he was showing up all wrong, but he would'nt go. Hes resting everyday and still comes over bad. I don't know why he won't go to the hospital.

Well, thats all for now so, i send all my online friend best wishes and hope your all keeping well...

Astra!