That effing imbecile is making my life hell. Early this morning when he arrived, he intimidated and patronised me as soon as he came through the door. And I done the same back in a way to let him know I mean what I'm saying. I hate being like this.
I told him I wanted to be left alone and be on my own. So, he spoke soft as he always does, so it sounds like its just me having ago at him and not him having a go at me. He patronised me to make me feel so small but, I just laughed at him to let him know it wasn't working and did so all the time he spoke to me in his nasty patronising, intimidating way.
Of course he wanted to hurt me more but, I wasn't having any of it and told him he could say and do what he likes and I just scoffed and laughed at him.
To be honest, I don't care what happens to him whether he has another heart attack or goes off his head. I just want rid of him and live the rest of my life in peace.
For a little while this morning, I did feel like killing myself just to get away from it all, him or sometimes thought about just walking away and leaving everything, everything behind.
I have thought about this for sometime. I want to be left alone. I feel like I hate people so much.
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I have just got dressed Sandra and turned on the computer and read your post.I sent you an e. mail yesterday,after reading your last post.I hope you got it.Why don't you ring the police and have a quiet word with them,or threaten him that you will put out an injunction on him,if he doesn't change his ways.It's like you said it's your home not his and he has no right to come.I would get a locksmith to call one evening after he has gone and change the locks.You can just buy the barrel(which is for the middle where you put the key)they do not have to change all the complete lock.It would be worth the cost .Then if he comes after this has been done,he won't be able to let himself in.If he starts knocking and banging about ,then ring the police.They are very keen now on domestic violence, not like they used to be.I am so sorry you are experiencing this horrible situation.So I do hope and pray you can overcome this and get rid of him,as your post states.Love you .Don't doanything silly please .Take Care God Bless Kath xxx
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