I'm not sure how i'm feeling today really.
Yesterday, i had a home visit from the memory clinic service. I was tested with silly questions all of which i answered correctly, then i was told a name and address and was tested on that several times for memory during the session and maths which i'm very bad at so i told them i'm useless at maths so they by passed that question.The address i got right except for part of it once. I had to write a sentence which was ok except for my writting which told them had deteriorated over time, once neat and tidy, now all over the place well, tidier and a few other tests i got right. Some more questions were asked of me and they wrote down the answers i gave them ect... Some of the answers i gave i feel un-easy about which might go against me for some reason...i think! but this is all about being truthful about myself which i was.
My daughter thinks i might have Alzheimers as shes worked with people with this condition at Age Concern and told me to give the memory team her phone no. which i feel uneasy about incase something is wrong in that way and they might put me away somewhere or drug me up.
I can still run my own household, dress and clothe myself (with discomfort and difficulty at times, sometimes more than others though, but i can do this task) I'm always trying to work things, but i do find myself checking everything several times before i'm sure. I do feel like theres something missing and find myself thinking hard and looking for what i don't know. I always feel i've forgotten something.
When i cook i feel that it is'nt up to scratch like it used to be which i've been told about or i can't remember how to do this or that occasionally, so i don't cook as often as i used too. And other things other than cooking have changed too that i can't think of at this time.
I have remembered a few things since yesterday that i should have told them which i do think is relevant, but feel worried about telling them, some are things that my daughter mentioned to me last night.
The times i've been shouted at because i can't remember things and told i can when i can't. I have always associated this with Chiari, never even thought of Alzheimers untill my daughter mentioned it to me last year. Some of the things that has happened to me does worry me as i've never mentioned them on here which i've only told my daughter about thats why she believes i have Alzheimers. I have written about something that happened to me in my other blog http://astras-thoughts-and-feelings.blogspot.com/
But saying all that i do know something is wrong and it comes on in bouts. Is it Alzheimers or is it Chiari??? I suppose only time will tell.
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