Everything Happens in Three's and Dirty Tricks.

I hav'nt been able to get online during the evening's lately as "ST" has been on here most of the time and during the day i did not have time to write my journal. Friday, i had the workmen in from the council to install a fire alarm and an extractor in my kitchen, WELL! NO1...what a mess they've made of my house. My new decor in my kitchen is ruined and will have to be done again. I did ask if they could leave the extractor, but they said it must be done. My bathroom lino has been pulled up so they could lift a floorboard and is torn which was only fitted recently when my shower was installed. So, now i will have to put a claim into the council for compensation and i can't afford to do anything about the decor because i've got other things going on at the moment.

NO2...At the moment "ST" has been staying here since last month well before Christmas, because his mum had thrown him out 4 times and last week she stopped his money at the social and this last week i've been keeping him on my pension and i only get a low income. There was no apparent reason for her to keep throwing him out as hes no problem at all. But, i have come to realise why she has done this. "ST" will be 16 this year and when he goes to work she will have to pay full rent ect...so, she has passed this problem onto me which is a dirty trick to pull and i can't keep up with everything financially and physically ( meaning my health)...Last weekend "ST" went to his other nan and grandads with his mum and "J" and got in a row with everyone there, because "L" ( his mum) was telling a load of lies and running us down to her family, so he put it right and stuck up for us each time she said something that was'nt true or out of place which he knows we would never do to her. It seems that "E" ("A" girlfriend) and myself were supposed to have been talking badly about "L" which is untrue as we were talking about the baby (little Alfie). "L" was mentioned and i said i did'nt want to get ito talking about why "ST" was here and neither of us said a bad word against "L" anyway, so i don't know where she had got that from as i had'nt said anything to anyone about our conversation which was mostly about Alfie. But now i can't sit back and let this go on, we've got to look after our own interests "?" and myself and make things right for us.( i mean, our own interests and "ST" too! ) I really did'nt want to cause any upset anywhere along the line, but i am sorry to say we come first now. Before i always thought of others in case anything upset them because of my actions. But i'm not going to worry about anyone else now.

NO3...The high winds last night has pulled all my fencing down and is now un-repairable and will have to be put on hold for a while. Still never mind, i suppose everything will work out in the end be it good or bad.

These last weeks has been so stressful to say the least. My Hiatus Hernia has been playing up also Asthma and Chiari. I just can't cope with this stress.. I get by day by day doing my own bits and pieces and i'm able to cope with that, but i've been washing and cooking ect for "ST" and getting him up for school each day and its all telling on me healthwise.

A few weeks ago, i got myself some life insurance which i should have done years ago. I got the over 55 plan with AXA through my building society which is lower payments than getting it direct from AXA. As time is passing me by i thought i should act now and hope i last the 2 years as they state in their policy.

Well, thats all my news I'm waiting for "ST" at the moment to return from his mums, i hope everything is alright and no arguements because he did'nt text me like i asked him to last night.

Astra!