Sometimes it feels like I'm being striped up left, right and centre. I do know I'm being used in more ways than one and don't know what to do about it. This has been going on for quite some years now and i don't know any different anyway. Trouble is, I've got some Ponce's around me who sort of borrows and sometimes not pay back or i have to chase them up for my money even though i near enough keep them. Sometimes when i say, i've got no more money, i'm called a liar and i must have it in the bank, well i wish i had, i would spend it myself.
Every where i go or everything i do i pay for myself and don't take or borrow from anyone else.
I sometimes think to myself how much money i would have over those many years , it would be a few thousand at least which makes me feel a bit angry inside when i get to think about it, as it is I've got hardly anything to show for as many years....skint in other words where i shouldn't be. When i go to the shops, i pay for petrol money each time and anywhere else i want to go and all other usual household depts.I don't get anything freemans.
Yesterday, i had my hair done at the hairdressers, but before i went to get my hair done a member of my family said and where do you have the money to have your hair done? you should be saving it in a patronising way (and i thought yeah ya right, i should be saving my money) then i replied in not a lady-like manner ( then again, who says i'm a lady haha! ) at all, un-repeatable blah-blah..etc..and more blah-blah from me, you name it, i said it. No-one is going to tell me what and when to do anything, i felt really angry to think i'm being told what i can and can't do effing cheek! Who has the right to do that? no-one! Oh dear, i mustn't get started here. I don't think people like me to spend my money on myself. Well, i've got news for them, i'm going to buy myself some more clothes next week and i don't care what anyone says. If this family member says anything, they will get a peace of my mind in more words than one. I think people would prefer to see me walking around in rags and scuffed shoes ect...Well, they have another think coming.
I feel better now i've had a massive RANT and got this off my chest.
2 comments:
Hi Sandra just done a long comment and blogger makes out it is having probs so lost it Grrr.You SPEND SPEND SPEND love you deserve it.I know the feeling what you mean.Some folk think all we have to do is spend our money on them.When they ask you where you got it all from,when you do have a spending spree.Tell them you have had a visit from The Secret Millionaire haaaaaaaaa.I DO LOL!! They soon shut up.I never spend any money on myself.Rooster says I am silly for not doing.I have wanted a new phone for a while now,the sound has been realy bad when I ring out,but iv'e kept putting it off.Low and behold Rooster comes along tonight with a new one for me.Haaa.He's a good lad.I try make do with things as long as possible to save.So you go and buy what you want.Tell them what to do with themselves OK!! haaaaaa .Have a great Friday night.Catch you later love Take Care God Bless Kath xx
Hi Kath...Just seen this, thnx for your comment. I saved all my pennies up and went on a spending sree yesterday with "SH" and "Z" and bought new clothes. Hope you like your new phone..luv Sandra xxx
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