Embarrassing situation

The last couple of weeks have been hell. "?" had been off his medication Fluoxetine for 1 month and things were going from bad to worse. He has been manic and aggresive in his manner and seemed to be talking fast and rushing anxious like,it seemed.I did'nt have to say or do anything and i was in the wrong and was shouted down, i seemed to be walking on eggshells all the time.
He had said for a few days now that his head felt like it was going crazy. And in turn i thought i was going to go crazy too thinking all sorts and could'nt think about the next day, if that makes sense and i felt like i was glad when he left the house and dreaded his return. However, Tuesday he decided to go back on his medication and he seems a bit quiter and calmer now thank god and will improve as time goes on providing he keeps on his meds.
I hav'nt spoken to my cousins lately on the phone mainly because of the situation with "?" over the last few weeks because i feel embarrassed incase he shouts out something and embarrasses me while i'm talking, because he can be very outspoken and rude.

Tomorrow my daughter "SH" will be round, she has got her driving lesson in the morning. My grandaughter "Z" started her first year at secondary school on Tuesday, not sure if she likes it or not though. 

Well, my computer went wrong altogether, so i've got rid of that and as for the laptop, i don't get a look in with that, so i gave it to "?" and he gave it to "ST" as he uses it most of the time. And i bought MYSELF a new laptop and i'm keeping it ALL TO MYSELF too and i'm more than happy with my new laptop...MINE, ALL MINE...lol. 
I was told by a computer repairer that the computer needed new processor and memory upgrade and i thought i might as well get myself a new laptop that i really wanted with all the gadgets already on it, webcam ect...What i want a webcam for i don't know, i don't even IM anyone, still its there if i do want to use it at anytime.

I went along to the diabetic clinic last Monday and it seems that my colesterol result was sky high and so was my blood sugars. I think i must have been in denial. I did at some point think "whats the point" Now i am desperately trying to stick to a proper diet with another tablet the nurse has given me on top of what i'm already taking. I must do this and keep to it. If other people can do it, why can't i?
I have been having Chiari problems of late, maybe due to the situation with "?" and i felt so ill and sick as well on Wednesday and i had to go and lay down for a while.
Well, its getting late and i'm ready for my bed, don't think i will watch TV tonight.